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I found out a few days ago that a friend of mine had died. He left his home and was missing for a few days before his body was found in the woods behind his house. It seems that he died by his own hand. And I'm not really sure what to do with that information? It's just really strange, being able to still picture his face and hear his voice in my head, and knowing that he's not here anymore. I don't know if I'm grieving, or if I'm just trying to wrap my head around death (I've never had anyone even remotely close to me die), or if I should even be allowed to grieve. We weren't best friends, and we hadn't even known each other for long. But we were somewhat close. We worked together for the majority of the summer at a job we both hated, and we bonded a lot during our (excruciatingly long) shifts. We vented to each other, and shared a lot of secrets because it was just one of those relationships where you could spill so much and not feel wary. We stayed in touch after we both quit that job, and now he's gone. I knew that he was world-weary, and at a bit of a loss as to where to go next in life...he had money troubles, issues with family, and was having a bad time overall. But he never mentioned suicide, and he did have some plans for the future. He was incredibly thoughtful and much more kind-hearted than you would first assume upon meeting him. He had a great smile that he hardly ever showed. And he didn't deserve to feel so bad that offing himself in the woods seemed like the only option left for him. That's just so desperately wrong and unfair. I'm just really hoping he's happier now, and that he feels cared for...I know he was lonely, and I hope that, wherever or whatever he may be now, he doesn't feel that way anymore. He was good, and I wish I could have done more for him.

P.S. Our old workplace is collecting donations to plant a memorial tree for him and it's nice and all but he hated every inch of that place and he'd probably scoff at the thought of being memorialized there.
The Alcohol in Her Veins
A project I was required to complete for a class I took last Fall Semester. I don't know how to properly colour, nor shade, but I figured I should post this somewhere. It was supposed to represent various facets of my mother's alcoholism. I had great fun drawing it, though the topic was rather grim! Thanks for looking!
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I found out a few days ago that a friend of mine had died. He left his home and was missing for a few days before his body was found in the woods behind his house. It seems that he died by his own hand. And I'm not really sure what to do with that information? It's just really strange, being able to still picture his face and hear his voice in my head, and knowing that he's not here anymore. I don't know if I'm grieving, or if I'm just trying to wrap my head around death (I've never had anyone even remotely close to me die), or if I should even be allowed to grieve. We weren't best friends, and we hadn't even known each other for long. But we were somewhat close. We worked together for the majority of the summer at a job we both hated, and we bonded a lot during our (excruciatingly long) shifts. We vented to each other, and shared a lot of secrets because it was just one of those relationships where you could spill so much and not feel wary. We stayed in touch after we both quit that job, and now he's gone. I knew that he was world-weary, and at a bit of a loss as to where to go next in life...he had money troubles, issues with family, and was having a bad time overall. But he never mentioned suicide, and he did have some plans for the future. He was incredibly thoughtful and much more kind-hearted than you would first assume upon meeting him. He had a great smile that he hardly ever showed. And he didn't deserve to feel so bad that offing himself in the woods seemed like the only option left for him. That's just so desperately wrong and unfair. I'm just really hoping he's happier now, and that he feels cared for...I know he was lonely, and I hope that, wherever or whatever he may be now, he doesn't feel that way anymore. He was good, and I wish I could have done more for him.

P.S. Our old workplace is collecting donations to plant a memorial tree for him and it's nice and all but he hated every inch of that place and he'd probably scoff at the thought of being memorialized there.

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LeBleuAnteater
Ris
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Hi! Please call me Ris, Bleu, or Andy! I'm just a girl who likes to dabble in artwork and the writing of stories...maybe one day I'll get something published!
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NorthernMyth Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Student Digital Artist
Thanks for the :+devwatch: :heart:
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shcocola Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2017
Haha no problem but would you mind checking out my account too?
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Sventine Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
:boing: Thanks for the fav :w00t: :boing:
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joshbluemacaw Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2016  Student Filmographer
Thanks for the fave! :)
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icycreep Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
thank you so much for the watch ;A; it's really appreciated!! <33 
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Storiel Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2016
thanks for the watch aaa
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morArthfael Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2016   General Artist
thank you kindly for the watch! ^^
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LeBleuAnteater Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
You're very welcome!
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Droemar Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2016
Hey! Since you favorited some of my dino art, I thought I'd let you know I'm doing a Kickstarter for my dinosaur novel Mark of the Conifer, which is live! www.kickstarter.com/projects/9…
You can also see more art for it here: www.facebook.com/markoftheconi…
Hope to see you there!
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LeBleuAnteater Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey, I'm checking out the Kickstarter and reading the first chapter that you have available. I'm definitely planning on donating! Best of luck to you!
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